February 2012
Life is hard it sucks and I'm giving up.
For good.
Nobody knows the real me. Nobody knows how many...
Dear love of my life.
im sitting here feeling so guilty. everynight its hard for me to get by and right now you probably think its old and pathetic. so do i, i wish i wasnt like this i wish i could be normal and happy for you/with you. i always have so much on my mind and its usually the same old stuff every time. those thoughts just dont go away though, you dont know what its like to wanna cut that vein keeping you...
this is harder than I thought. Monsters are taking...
I can feel the claws of the monster holding onto...
Finally got a personal trainer, we start sunday....
Fat, embarrassed and in pain.
me: I'm so full omg I'm not gonna eat for days
me: are those brownies
I want to cut so badly right now. I wanna cut the...
I'm ashamed and embarrassed.
Playing With Razors: Cynthia. →
playingwithrazors:
Today, I actually talked with my new manager. And…she asked me why I was in the hospital on wednesday. I didn’t know what to say. I just kinda shook my head, and she said “Its alright, I’ve been there you know.” And then I started crying, and…eventually I told her about my diagnosis, and how they…
Ordered. →
woahhitscourt asked: hi, i love you.
Oops I'm bleeding.
thoughts
Me: I feel like crying
Depression: Do it. No one likes you
Me: I have friends
Depression: No you don't they only keep you around cause they feel sorry for you
Me: You're right
Depression: You know what you need to do, right?
Me: Get the blades?
Depression: Get the blades.